from sylvie emmanual's fabulous coffee farm when she had us over for tea:september 11th and john leaves to go to canada today. isn't that strange. what am i still doing here? am i absconding from life or living it? it is hard to say. life is different, that much is true. and hopefully i am different too. i make grand promises to myself about how to live life, how to survive in america. only time will tell.