because you can never have too much holiday music

my itunes library has almost 500 items tagged for christmas.  this is some what ridiculous. why only "somewhat"? because i've misplaced my copy of sarah mclachlin and barenaked ladies singing "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen" and really, what holiday collection can be complete without that 90s classic???

i can tell just by lookin at you, you do not have enough music for the holiday season. let's rectify that shall we?

"Another Christmas Mix" not all my favorites, but a mighty fine hour playlist all the same.

download it here as zip file: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=KOWEHYY3
or here as a rar file http://www.megaupload.com/?d=P69AZIW8

december first

i love xmas music. i like those cheesy stations that start playing the "holiday" tunes from the moment the turkey day leftovers have been put away.
i am a fantastic xmas present giver. i'll easily throw down the credit card and wrack up the debt for the perfect gift. indeed, i'll waste hours thinking of such things with the music blaring.

but i don't really like xmas.

well, that's not fair- i can deal with the 25th. it's december as a whole that really drags me down.
why? is it the cold? the dark? the memories, the oldest of which still burn bright in reflected snow? even happy ghosts of xmas past are dredged with regret and loss.

this is clearly not good for my psych eval-- what does it say that this, the season of cheer, will certainly leave me in tears. maybe not tonight, but i know the countdown, how long i can hold out before my reserve of good faith, happy thoughts will undoubtedly run dry. as if the timer started today and now waits patiently to collect. sentimental bullshit really. and yet, also truth.

i tried to out run winter today. just me, 3 layers of clothes, gloves, a hat, an ipod full of harry potter, and 13 miles to keep me company. but i can't run forever.


i know where crazy lives. i'm not back yet.