i had a really rough day today and now i can't sleep. well i need to get my head out of my rear.
the other day one of my good friends told me about a friend of hers, another actress in about the same place as we are, who just discovered she has advanced stage cancer.
and today, 6 blocks from where i spent the entire day downing over the counter drugs and trying not to have a complete meltdown:
"A homeless man died in Union Square today. Not huge news, but his dead body was on a park bench near the cops who congregate at the south-eastern portion of the park. Several people went up to the group of police to mention the man was passed-out or dead. Around 9am, a group of (austrian/german) tourists were adamant with the police the man needed some assistance. The only reply came from a chris noth lookalike cop who said 'Why don't you go push the man. I ain't touching 'em. He could be napping, you wanna take that risk? Go home.' Around 11:15am paramedics (unknown ambulance unit) arrived and took the man's vitals. About 20 minutes later they put the man on a stretcher with a blanket covering him. He was dead by the time the paramedics arrived. Excellent Police work."
lesson: get over it, chris.
Perspective is indeed a wonderful thing to have! At the same time we have to make sure that in addition to perspective and using it to help us be grateful for what we DO have, we should also be compassionate to ourselves. Don't let perspective beat you up, be a soft place to fall for yourself as well. Hugs!
ReplyDelete"Coulda, woulda, shoulda's" are terribly heavy to carry for your whole life, and we often do. Dreams are never wrong to follow; see yourself doing it--one day at a time. Intention is not wanting, wishing or hoping; it is the determination to do. Perhaps the most important, and the hardest to do, is living in the now. Give yourself permission to do that and live well. Love!
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